- Unfair !

I do wonder why , that when i do something wrong, even just a simple small thing, i get scold -.- But when he don't do anything. I get scold? dafu*??
Unfair dude. .not just about him and me. Including the rest. Nahh, im not saying you scold them too. Im saying that they do something , they don't scold, but when i do it, i get it. Why ?? hmm ?? ...
Pushing me is one thing, but this is another huge different thing do you know that? Try putting yourself in my shoes and see. If freaking tiring and irritating you know?
Ya, im not the best. But atleast understanding im doing my best here. 
I come to school by taxi -.- cheap ar you think? 13rm la .. you pay ? who pay? me right? -.-
And you all don't freaking appreciate it. What about those having transport problems and can't come? You got ask them to come by taxi ?? 
Others don't come because not feeling well, i don't come because im sick . Early in the morning i ((CENSORED)) gets a phone call asking me to come NOW.. seriously?

Why do i get complained about everything? ya.. i have someone, but does that got to do with my b*n* life?? Others have too.. Longer then me. Did you complained about them?????
It's like, everything i do , is wrong to you guys. I have emotions too . I have my limits too. Not only you! With they joke, you show this '' xD " ... when i try to joke you show this " o.o " UNFAIR ! im freaking tired. Im not a robot that can work non stop and get your things done in perfect timing and quality. But i ensure you im already pushing myself to try my best. 
Seriously think about it, put yourself in my shoe. How much longer do you think i can take it this way ?? YOU GUYS ARE BLOODY PUSHING ME IN THE WRONG FREAKING RETARDED WAY! ..... -.- "

New blog Title !

Hi guys! :D .. 
The point of me changing my blog title to ''Time for a change'' is because, i feel that, this past year, people have been pushing me around unnecessarily..I've seriously had enough of those : 

- Taking adventage of me
- Using me
- Teasing me
- Blaming me for everything even though its not my fault
- Look down on me
- Leave me aside
- Treat me like an ((CENSORED))
etc....

And also i've notice that sometimes i mix with the wrong people! .. as in, idiots -.- no offense . But i am one too :D .. anyways, its time to change! thats what i mean! 
Screw those people who always ignore me when i find them for chat, but they bloody find me when they need me or feel like it -.- REtards! ((CENSORED)) you! 
If you ever consider me as your friend, you won't ignore me..Even in any kind of situation. 
I'd unfriend you in fb (Since nowadays , we're contacting in fb most @@) and ya. Don't find me again. Those i don't wanna be harsh on. Fine. I'll just leave you as you are now. You ask 1, i answer 1. Enough. Not more. 
Write till can't think adi @@ That's about it now. Follow if you wanna ! thanks for reading ! ^__^ (Y)

Such mother you are...

I will remember what you said when i was young. Now i remember clearly. 

You said that you don't want me anymore when i was young. You said you borrowed yourself to my father just to give birth to me and my brother... i remember.. 

Don't you feel bad or guilty saying that? you are a mother! you dare admit im your son!

And you once said that ! Don't you feel stupid ? 

You are the one who decided to leave me when i was young.. when i was standard 3. 

All i could do is stood at the gate and watch you drive away with that damn bitch!

After that what did you get? that bitch left you with nothing!

You decided to divorce with my dad. And now you regret? 

And you freaking decide to cause trouble over jealousy that my dad remarried and have a stable family now? what the fuck?

Im tired with your actions.. You always send me messages scolding that i don't respect you. But do you respect your own son ?  Few days back , i was looking back at all the old photos, when still young. I see a great and happy family. But now , i always hear conflicts. If only you would just grow up and show some forgiveness , we would still be a happy family together. But now there's no turning back anymore for you. You did what you did. You should had think twice before you said all those nasty things back then. Before its too late for you to ever sit on the same table to have a nice peaceful family dinner together. I admit it, i never had a complete family dinner before. 

I want to feel how it feels to have a family! ONE great family! NO ARGUMENTS! Whats so hard? huh? .. But what can we do . All we can do now its just live with it. But i will remember what you said and did . Till the day i kick the bucket! The kind of care you show is wrong.. do you notice that? Haizzz.. im tired of this shits. Have A Good Day ..(V)