Such mother you are...

I will remember what you said when i was young. Now i remember clearly. 

You said that you don't want me anymore when i was young. You said you borrowed yourself to my father just to give birth to me and my brother... i remember.. 

Don't you feel bad or guilty saying that? you are a mother! you dare admit im your son!

And you once said that ! Don't you feel stupid ? 

You are the one who decided to leave me when i was young.. when i was standard 3. 

All i could do is stood at the gate and watch you drive away with that damn bitch!

After that what did you get? that bitch left you with nothing!

You decided to divorce with my dad. And now you regret? 

And you freaking decide to cause trouble over jealousy that my dad remarried and have a stable family now? what the fuck?

Im tired with your actions.. You always send me messages scolding that i don't respect you. But do you respect your own son ?  Few days back , i was looking back at all the old photos, when still young. I see a great and happy family. But now , i always hear conflicts. If only you would just grow up and show some forgiveness , we would still be a happy family together. But now there's no turning back anymore for you. You did what you did. You should had think twice before you said all those nasty things back then. Before its too late for you to ever sit on the same table to have a nice peaceful family dinner together. I admit it, i never had a complete family dinner before. 

I want to feel how it feels to have a family! ONE great family! NO ARGUMENTS! Whats so hard? huh? .. But what can we do . All we can do now its just live with it. But i will remember what you said and did . Till the day i kick the bucket! The kind of care you show is wrong.. do you notice that? Haizzz.. im tired of this shits. Have A Good Day ..(V)