Woootss! Its May D: (So fast)
Well as usual , will just start off the post by talking about those stuff..
And again , same shit..unfair..
If let say that was me delaying the design , i would already get screwed.
But HE delayed it , you din give a damn and you even ask me to drag the time for him ..
WHAT THE FUCK?!?!?
He ar, i tell you la.. Wednesday said Thursday, Thursday said Friday , Saturday early in the morning say Monday , Monday say Tuesday. now its Wednesday , i still aint got a shit..
awesome fella right?? Delay my things . Now up and down sesat ..
Let me tell you something, if you wanna test or try someone weather they can handle it or can he take over the top one after you go or not, this aint the right way dude. You are just pushing me away do you know that? Im fed up, yea, to tell you the truth.
Now my plan is. After concert, chaoo.. after handover only i come back.. i don't wanna face you anymore ..you are too much.tooooo farking much. Enough said.
Relationship aint going so way :/
Exam is in a weeks time D: .. have to start preparing adi :( haihhh...
This will be my last post till after exam then :)
GOOD LUCK FOR EVERYONE WHO IS HAVING THEIR EXAMS!
Chaoo.. update soon.
Wednesday 1 May 2013
Monday 22 April 2013
.choices forced to be made.
*Helo..and again , im stuck thinking weather to quit or not to .. haihh.. Sometimes when i feel so darn angry , i feel like quitting , a thousand reasons would come in to my mind and says that i need to stay..sometimes i even feel that IM the failure for being what i am today..
Yea..I don't care anymore weather they give me or not..they give me, i do properly, they don't give , i don't mind also..But i don't think so anymore.. I WAS capable of taking up that highest pose, they said so.. Im just too worn out. I just hope i don't get anything, so i won't cause any trouble anymore. Plus i could quit without worrying.. Honest, i don't want to quit , i love them. The heart-ache i feel when i think of leaving..But what else choice do i have? i ain't important to them anymore.. They just come to me for things they need regarding my pose..the highest guy himself said we should'nt be unfair to people..but look who's talking..
Sometimes, i feel so tired, fed up , and pissed off, till i just don't give a damn about anything anymore. Aren't we suppose to understand each other more?? You should know la , how you treat me. Its just unfair. There's too darn many things to list down about what you all did. Maybe i have a different thinking? But still, you could give a positive reply ? or atleast reject it politely ? rather then ignoring me. Apart from that, do you know? each person has their own deep inside feeling? yea..DO FEEL HURT WHEN YOU ALL BULL-CRAP ABOUT ME!! , BULL-CRAP HOW I SUCK AT DRUMMING! HOW FAT AM I ! .. DO YOU FREAKING KNOW HOW I FEEL?!?! yea.. i feel like giving up ! There was even once that one of my 'elder' one kicked me for no reason -.- .. You all spoke with me in private , 4 of you , i still remember , in 3A4.. you all ask me to tell all out.. i did. You all said you all will solve.. SEKARANG APA JADI?? Too much you know...haihh..enough said about it today..wanna rest my mind. So stress neh :/ .. lastly about this for today.. i just hope you all would put your self in my shoe and feel how i feel.. Cuba rasa..
I MISS MY DRUMs!! still at school :(( If i could know the IU day's date then i could take back la D: .. but..still no news..
Today at class, my bunch of friends decided to call everyone 'JOE' xDD haha..its a name :P .. so went so crazy and laughed our asses off xD .. Finally presented my groups English Essay Project..our group got an A ! :D woohoo! .. but anyways..had fun la xD group planning is always fun , IF you have the right people...
Expected alot regarding talentime and drama during this morning's assembly.. But then -.- . nope.. expected too much..haha..sijil also haven't come xD haha..
Chemistry , Pn Thevanei showed a experiment.. When the Magnisium oxide popped and sparkled (which everyone nears it kena xD) , i started clapping :P and the rest started clapping xD haha..macam show je :P
Tired day D: .. got to start revising .. exams !! T__T Mid - year..better not play play adi..Got to quality time on books!.. but still , NO NEGLECTING GYM! got to work out and get this damn tummy off ! T__T .. gonna have funnnnnnn :P
That's it for now.. will update soon. See ya!!
~ Michaelian and Proud ~
Yea..I don't care anymore weather they give me or not..they give me, i do properly, they don't give , i don't mind also..But i don't think so anymore.. I WAS capable of taking up that highest pose, they said so.. Im just too worn out. I just hope i don't get anything, so i won't cause any trouble anymore. Plus i could quit without worrying.. Honest, i don't want to quit , i love them. The heart-ache i feel when i think of leaving..But what else choice do i have? i ain't important to them anymore.. They just come to me for things they need regarding my pose..the highest guy himself said we should'nt be unfair to people..but look who's talking..
Sometimes, i feel so tired, fed up , and pissed off, till i just don't give a damn about anything anymore. Aren't we suppose to understand each other more?? You should know la , how you treat me. Its just unfair. There's too darn many things to list down about what you all did. Maybe i have a different thinking? But still, you could give a positive reply ? or atleast reject it politely ? rather then ignoring me. Apart from that, do you know? each person has their own deep inside feeling? yea..DO FEEL HURT WHEN YOU ALL BULL-CRAP ABOUT ME!! , BULL-CRAP HOW I SUCK AT DRUMMING! HOW FAT AM I ! .. DO YOU FREAKING KNOW HOW I FEEL?!?! yea.. i feel like giving up ! There was even once that one of my 'elder' one kicked me for no reason -.- .. You all spoke with me in private , 4 of you , i still remember , in 3A4.. you all ask me to tell all out.. i did. You all said you all will solve.. SEKARANG APA JADI?? Too much you know...haihh..enough said about it today..wanna rest my mind. So stress neh :/ .. lastly about this for today.. i just hope you all would put your self in my shoe and feel how i feel.. Cuba rasa..
I MISS MY DRUMs!! still at school :(( If i could know the IU day's date then i could take back la D: .. but..still no news..
Today at class, my bunch of friends decided to call everyone 'JOE' xDD haha..its a name :P .. so went so crazy and laughed our asses off xD .. Finally presented my groups English Essay Project..our group got an A ! :D woohoo! .. but anyways..had fun la xD group planning is always fun , IF you have the right people...
Expected alot regarding talentime and drama during this morning's assembly.. But then -.- . nope.. expected too much..haha..sijil also haven't come xD haha..
Chemistry , Pn Thevanei showed a experiment.. When the Magnisium oxide popped and sparkled (which everyone nears it kena xD) , i started clapping :P and the rest started clapping xD haha..macam show je :P
Tired day D: .. got to start revising .. exams !! T__T Mid - year..better not play play adi..Got to quality time on books!.. but still , NO NEGLECTING GYM! got to work out and get this damn tummy off ! T__T .. gonna have funnnnnnn :P
That's it for now.. will update soon. See ya!!
~ Michaelian and Proud ~
Thursday 18 April 2013
- Update -
I shall leave after concert maybe?? As long as its before AGM...Some people sure will be happier ... i know i know, alot of people hates me. maybe thats my main reason of leaving? Yea..guess so. I just hope i don't get choosen for any important pose or anything..
Where else or who else i could tell this to besides my blog ?? lol... if i tell her, she sure won't let me quit. I just hope they will be happier without me..haha.. silly reason of quitting right?
But whats the point of staying when people hates me , they claim im annoying. Ok, but am i still nowadays? . Who knows la, depends on each person's thinking . But then one thing im pissed off most is about , if you got a problem with me , why not just tell me ? Don't la go and damage my instrument, cheap izit?? Cymbals itself cost me RM 1700 .. but then who you are is like..oh look, *drops something heavy on it, stare at me, speechless*.. I rather let you punch me in the face man..like seriously. But haiyaaa(so many BUTs , lol) , I just do what i can do for this last 2 months with my pose la.. settle it.. then i could go without so much worries on my shoulders..no need to emo thinking all of this.. im tired enough, all those irresponsible actions, disrespect , unfair-ness, no appreciation. Its just too much , too much that its over what we expect. MUCH over..
On to studies? haha..having a nice life with 4Sc1 , chun fellas la.. (except some) .. Even im freaking down , they could make me laugh.. The Jokers, The smart asses, The idiots, The troublemakers..hahaha..im lucky to choose not to leave them , if not i'll be freaking regretting right now. Studies are going ok..English , got 28 / 30 for ULBS :D(one of the highest class , along with 2 more friends).. Still haven't got a tuition -.- Addmaths teacher missing whole week , and scolding us that exam is around the corner. -.- Deii, come to class every lesson, then we'll stop complaining. Bio , getting more and more interesting :D Chemistry , haihh, same old pn. Thevanei :P but i do understand her.. She's good.
Not bad la, 4sc1 awesome class la :) though there are some idiots -.- irritating man.. come, joking time want so serious but when we serious you joke -.- somemore joke same thing everyday.. you're absent since tuesday..and everybody is like ''yeayy, he absent, class so quiet'' haha! no offense dude! just telling the truth :P .. tomorrow holiday , weeeeeee!! ^_^ But miss them la :P *4th month, and 4sc1 has already been blacklisted by some teachers* XD
Getting ready for this coming monday's english essay project :O GROUP STUDY TIME ! xD
On to friends, Friends?? got alot :) friendly people , got some are even special friends la. (Best friends la, dont misund xD) , finally found one or two friends to go to the gym with :D .. finally can start working out.. ehh, just started ok ?? don't come pushing my chest , squeezing my hand all .. YET.. :PP better yet, one of my friends can teach me how to work out :OO THANKS DUDE! .. finally got some things to do , besides sleeping at home everyday..haha!
Talentime and drama so fast over D: bad thing about this year is,, MANA PHOTO! TT__TT
so less photos ny.. but anyways, atleast we enjoyed it la.. thats enough , enough for us to remember..Drama, my first time experiencing being part of them. Really nice, already missing them :) all those rehearsal and stuffs.. so fast D': .. Great working together with them :) once in a life time.. Like what Ms. Corine said, '' Well Done! Now experienced it, now remember it forever, cherish it!" ..
On Saturday , before the show started , Saw Mr Thomas Wong (Asst. Monitor's Dad) , he asked us quite a meaningful question :) .. will always remember it. Wonderful Man..
Come to think of it, finally im getting closed to Mr Waran.. 4sc1's wonderful English Teacher.
His one hack of a awesome teacher i tell you .. (Correction : Educator *) haha.. not bad la..
Din' notice typed so many adi .. @@ .. sorry sorry xD haha.. but if you have read until here. Thanks for your time :) this is kinda like sharing my experience with the world ..haha..Met some new friends, some old gone adi (unfriend??) , SOME. But then, cherish the ones we have.. haha.. Good night. Update soon ;)
P/s : To one of my closest Bestie who are waiting for this post, thanks for your patience xD *salute* xDD :) .
Where else or who else i could tell this to besides my blog ?? lol... if i tell her, she sure won't let me quit. I just hope they will be happier without me..haha.. silly reason of quitting right?
But whats the point of staying when people hates me , they claim im annoying. Ok, but am i still nowadays? . Who knows la, depends on each person's thinking . But then one thing im pissed off most is about , if you got a problem with me , why not just tell me ? Don't la go and damage my instrument, cheap izit?? Cymbals itself cost me RM 1700 .. but then who you are is like..oh look, *drops something heavy on it, stare at me, speechless*.. I rather let you punch me in the face man..like seriously. But haiyaaa(so many BUTs , lol) , I just do what i can do for this last 2 months with my pose la.. settle it.. then i could go without so much worries on my shoulders..no need to emo thinking all of this.. im tired enough, all those irresponsible actions, disrespect , unfair-ness, no appreciation. Its just too much , too much that its over what we expect. MUCH over..
On to studies? haha..having a nice life with 4Sc1 , chun fellas la.. (except some) .. Even im freaking down , they could make me laugh.. The Jokers, The smart asses, The idiots, The troublemakers..hahaha..im lucky to choose not to leave them , if not i'll be freaking regretting right now. Studies are going ok..English , got 28 / 30 for ULBS :D(one of the highest class , along with 2 more friends).. Still haven't got a tuition -.- Addmaths teacher missing whole week , and scolding us that exam is around the corner. -.- Deii, come to class every lesson, then we'll stop complaining. Bio , getting more and more interesting :D Chemistry , haihh, same old pn. Thevanei :P but i do understand her.. She's good.
Not bad la, 4sc1 awesome class la :) though there are some idiots -.- irritating man.. come, joking time want so serious but when we serious you joke -.- somemore joke same thing everyday.. you're absent since tuesday..and everybody is like ''yeayy, he absent, class so quiet'' haha! no offense dude! just telling the truth :P .. tomorrow holiday , weeeeeee!! ^_^ But miss them la :P *4th month, and 4sc1 has already been blacklisted by some teachers* XD
Getting ready for this coming monday's english essay project :O GROUP STUDY TIME ! xD
On to friends, Friends?? got alot :) friendly people , got some are even special friends la. (Best friends la, dont misund xD) , finally found one or two friends to go to the gym with :D .. finally can start working out.. ehh, just started ok ?? don't come pushing my chest , squeezing my hand all .. YET.. :PP better yet, one of my friends can teach me how to work out :OO THANKS DUDE! .. finally got some things to do , besides sleeping at home everyday..haha!
Talentime and drama so fast over D: bad thing about this year is,, MANA PHOTO! TT__TT
so less photos ny.. but anyways, atleast we enjoyed it la.. thats enough , enough for us to remember..Drama, my first time experiencing being part of them. Really nice, already missing them :) all those rehearsal and stuffs.. so fast D': .. Great working together with them :) once in a life time.. Like what Ms. Corine said, '' Well Done! Now experienced it, now remember it forever, cherish it!" ..
On Saturday , before the show started , Saw Mr Thomas Wong (Asst. Monitor's Dad) , he asked us quite a meaningful question :) .. will always remember it. Wonderful Man..
Come to think of it, finally im getting closed to Mr Waran.. 4sc1's wonderful English Teacher.
His one hack of a awesome teacher i tell you .. (Correction : Educator *) haha.. not bad la..
Din' notice typed so many adi .. @@ .. sorry sorry xD haha.. but if you have read until here. Thanks for your time :) this is kinda like sharing my experience with the world ..haha..Met some new friends, some old gone adi (unfriend??) , SOME. But then, cherish the ones we have.. haha.. Good night. Update soon ;)
P/s : To one of my closest Bestie who are waiting for this post, thanks for your patience xD *salute* xDD :) .
Friday 21 December 2012
- Unfair !
I do wonder why , that when i do something wrong, even just a simple small thing, i get scold -.- But when he don't do anything. I get scold? dafu*??
Unfair dude. .not just about him and me. Including the rest. Nahh, im not saying you scold them too. Im saying that they do something , they don't scold, but when i do it, i get it. Why ?? hmm ?? ...
Pushing me is one thing, but this is another huge different thing do you know that? Try putting yourself in my shoes and see. If freaking tiring and irritating you know?
Ya, im not the best. But atleast understanding im doing my best here.
I come to school by taxi -.- cheap ar you think? 13rm la .. you pay ? who pay? me right? -.-
And you all don't freaking appreciate it. What about those having transport problems and can't come? You got ask them to come by taxi ??
Others don't come because not feeling well, i don't come because im sick . Early in the morning i ((CENSORED)) gets a phone call asking me to come NOW.. seriously?
Why do i get complained about everything? ya.. i have someone, but does that got to do with my b*n* life?? Others have too.. Longer then me. Did you complained about them?????
It's like, everything i do , is wrong to you guys. I have emotions too . I have my limits too. Not only you! With they joke, you show this '' xD " ... when i try to joke you show this " o.o " UNFAIR ! im freaking tired. Im not a robot that can work non stop and get your things done in perfect timing and quality. But i ensure you im already pushing myself to try my best.
Seriously think about it, put yourself in my shoe. How much longer do you think i can take it this way ?? YOU GUYS ARE BLOODY PUSHING ME IN THE WRONG FREAKING RETARDED WAY! ..... -.- "
Unfair dude. .not just about him and me. Including the rest. Nahh, im not saying you scold them too. Im saying that they do something , they don't scold, but when i do it, i get it. Why ?? hmm ?? ...
Pushing me is one thing, but this is another huge different thing do you know that? Try putting yourself in my shoes and see. If freaking tiring and irritating you know?
Ya, im not the best. But atleast understanding im doing my best here.
I come to school by taxi -.- cheap ar you think? 13rm la .. you pay ? who pay? me right? -.-
And you all don't freaking appreciate it. What about those having transport problems and can't come? You got ask them to come by taxi ??
Others don't come because not feeling well, i don't come because im sick . Early in the morning i ((CENSORED)) gets a phone call asking me to come NOW.. seriously?
Why do i get complained about everything? ya.. i have someone, but does that got to do with my b*n* life?? Others have too.. Longer then me. Did you complained about them?????
It's like, everything i do , is wrong to you guys. I have emotions too . I have my limits too. Not only you! With they joke, you show this '' xD " ... when i try to joke you show this " o.o " UNFAIR ! im freaking tired. Im not a robot that can work non stop and get your things done in perfect timing and quality. But i ensure you im already pushing myself to try my best.
Seriously think about it, put yourself in my shoe. How much longer do you think i can take it this way ?? YOU GUYS ARE BLOODY PUSHING ME IN THE WRONG FREAKING RETARDED WAY! ..... -.- "
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