*Helo..and again , im stuck thinking weather to quit or not to .. haihh.. Sometimes when i feel so darn angry , i feel like quitting , a thousand reasons would come in to my mind and says that i need to stay..sometimes i even feel that IM the failure for being what i am today..
Yea..I don't care anymore weather they give me or not..they give me, i do properly, they don't give , i don't mind also..But i don't think so anymore.. I WAS capable of taking up that highest pose, they said so.. Im just too worn out. I just hope i don't get anything, so i won't cause any trouble anymore. Plus i could quit without worrying.. Honest, i don't want to quit , i love them. The heart-ache i feel when i think of leaving..But what else choice do i have? i ain't important to them anymore.. They just come to me for things they need regarding my pose..the highest guy himself said we should'nt be unfair to people..but look who's talking..
Sometimes, i feel so tired, fed up , and pissed off, till i just don't give a damn about anything anymore. Aren't we suppose to understand each other more?? You should know la , how you treat me. Its just unfair. There's too darn many things to list down about what you all did. Maybe i have a different thinking? But still, you could give a positive reply ? or atleast reject it politely ? rather then ignoring me. Apart from that, do you know? each person has their own deep inside feeling? yea..DO FEEL HURT WHEN YOU ALL BULL-CRAP ABOUT ME!! , BULL-CRAP HOW I SUCK AT DRUMMING! HOW FAT AM I ! .. DO YOU FREAKING KNOW HOW I FEEL?!?! yea.. i feel like giving up ! There was even once that one of my 'elder' one kicked me for no reason -.- .. You all spoke with me in private , 4 of you , i still remember , in 3A4.. you all ask me to tell all out.. i did. You all said you all will solve.. SEKARANG APA JADI?? Too much you know...haihh..enough said about it today..wanna rest my mind. So stress neh :/ .. lastly about this for today.. i just hope you all would put your self in my shoe and feel how i feel.. Cuba rasa..
I MISS MY DRUMs!! still at school :(( If i could know the IU day's date then i could take back la D: .. but..still no news..
Today at class, my bunch of friends decided to call everyone 'JOE' xDD haha..its a name :P .. so went so crazy and laughed our asses off xD .. Finally presented my groups English Essay Project..our group got an A ! :D woohoo! .. but anyways..had fun la xD group planning is always fun , IF you have the right people...
Expected alot regarding talentime and drama during this morning's assembly.. But then -.- . nope.. expected too much..haha..sijil also haven't come xD haha..
Chemistry , Pn Thevanei showed a experiment.. When the Magnisium oxide popped and sparkled (which everyone nears it kena xD) , i started clapping :P and the rest started clapping xD haha..macam show je :P
Tired day D: .. got to start revising .. exams !! T__T Mid - year..better not play play adi..Got to quality time on books!.. but still , NO NEGLECTING GYM! got to work out and get this damn tummy off ! T__T .. gonna have funnnnnnn :P
That's it for now.. will update soon. See ya!!
~ Michaelian and Proud ~
Monday, 22 April 2013
Thursday, 18 April 2013
- Update -
I shall leave after concert maybe?? As long as its before AGM...Some people sure will be happier ... i know i know, alot of people hates me. maybe thats my main reason of leaving? Yea..guess so. I just hope i don't get choosen for any important pose or anything..
Where else or who else i could tell this to besides my blog ?? lol... if i tell her, she sure won't let me quit. I just hope they will be happier without me..haha.. silly reason of quitting right?
But whats the point of staying when people hates me , they claim im annoying. Ok, but am i still nowadays? . Who knows la, depends on each person's thinking . But then one thing im pissed off most is about , if you got a problem with me , why not just tell me ? Don't la go and damage my instrument, cheap izit?? Cymbals itself cost me RM 1700 .. but then who you are is like..oh look, *drops something heavy on it, stare at me, speechless*.. I rather let you punch me in the face man..like seriously. But haiyaaa(so many BUTs , lol) , I just do what i can do for this last 2 months with my pose la.. settle it.. then i could go without so much worries on my shoulders..no need to emo thinking all of this.. im tired enough, all those irresponsible actions, disrespect , unfair-ness, no appreciation. Its just too much , too much that its over what we expect. MUCH over..
On to studies? haha..having a nice life with 4Sc1 , chun fellas la.. (except some) .. Even im freaking down , they could make me laugh.. The Jokers, The smart asses, The idiots, The troublemakers..hahaha..im lucky to choose not to leave them , if not i'll be freaking regretting right now. Studies are going ok..English , got 28 / 30 for ULBS :D(one of the highest class , along with 2 more friends).. Still haven't got a tuition -.- Addmaths teacher missing whole week , and scolding us that exam is around the corner. -.- Deii, come to class every lesson, then we'll stop complaining. Bio , getting more and more interesting :D Chemistry , haihh, same old pn. Thevanei :P but i do understand her.. She's good.
Not bad la, 4sc1 awesome class la :) though there are some idiots -.- irritating man.. come, joking time want so serious but when we serious you joke -.- somemore joke same thing everyday.. you're absent since tuesday..and everybody is like ''yeayy, he absent, class so quiet'' haha! no offense dude! just telling the truth :P .. tomorrow holiday , weeeeeee!! ^_^ But miss them la :P *4th month, and 4sc1 has already been blacklisted by some teachers* XD
Getting ready for this coming monday's english essay project :O GROUP STUDY TIME ! xD
On to friends, Friends?? got alot :) friendly people , got some are even special friends la. (Best friends la, dont misund xD) , finally found one or two friends to go to the gym with :D .. finally can start working out.. ehh, just started ok ?? don't come pushing my chest , squeezing my hand all .. YET.. :PP better yet, one of my friends can teach me how to work out :OO THANKS DUDE! .. finally got some things to do , besides sleeping at home everyday..haha!
Talentime and drama so fast over D: bad thing about this year is,, MANA PHOTO! TT__TT
so less photos ny.. but anyways, atleast we enjoyed it la.. thats enough , enough for us to remember..Drama, my first time experiencing being part of them. Really nice, already missing them :) all those rehearsal and stuffs.. so fast D': .. Great working together with them :) once in a life time.. Like what Ms. Corine said, '' Well Done! Now experienced it, now remember it forever, cherish it!" ..
On Saturday , before the show started , Saw Mr Thomas Wong (Asst. Monitor's Dad) , he asked us quite a meaningful question :) .. will always remember it. Wonderful Man..
Come to think of it, finally im getting closed to Mr Waran.. 4sc1's wonderful English Teacher.
His one hack of a awesome teacher i tell you .. (Correction : Educator *) haha.. not bad la..
Din' notice typed so many adi .. @@ .. sorry sorry xD haha.. but if you have read until here. Thanks for your time :) this is kinda like sharing my experience with the world ..haha..Met some new friends, some old gone adi (unfriend??) , SOME. But then, cherish the ones we have.. haha.. Good night. Update soon ;)
P/s : To one of my closest Bestie who are waiting for this post, thanks for your patience xD *salute* xDD :) .
Where else or who else i could tell this to besides my blog ?? lol... if i tell her, she sure won't let me quit. I just hope they will be happier without me..haha.. silly reason of quitting right?
But whats the point of staying when people hates me , they claim im annoying. Ok, but am i still nowadays? . Who knows la, depends on each person's thinking . But then one thing im pissed off most is about , if you got a problem with me , why not just tell me ? Don't la go and damage my instrument, cheap izit?? Cymbals itself cost me RM 1700 .. but then who you are is like..oh look, *drops something heavy on it, stare at me, speechless*.. I rather let you punch me in the face man..like seriously. But haiyaaa(so many BUTs , lol) , I just do what i can do for this last 2 months with my pose la.. settle it.. then i could go without so much worries on my shoulders..no need to emo thinking all of this.. im tired enough, all those irresponsible actions, disrespect , unfair-ness, no appreciation. Its just too much , too much that its over what we expect. MUCH over..
On to studies? haha..having a nice life with 4Sc1 , chun fellas la.. (except some) .. Even im freaking down , they could make me laugh.. The Jokers, The smart asses, The idiots, The troublemakers..hahaha..im lucky to choose not to leave them , if not i'll be freaking regretting right now. Studies are going ok..English , got 28 / 30 for ULBS :D(one of the highest class , along with 2 more friends).. Still haven't got a tuition -.- Addmaths teacher missing whole week , and scolding us that exam is around the corner. -.- Deii, come to class every lesson, then we'll stop complaining. Bio , getting more and more interesting :D Chemistry , haihh, same old pn. Thevanei :P but i do understand her.. She's good.
Not bad la, 4sc1 awesome class la :) though there are some idiots -.- irritating man.. come, joking time want so serious but when we serious you joke -.- somemore joke same thing everyday.. you're absent since tuesday..and everybody is like ''yeayy, he absent, class so quiet'' haha! no offense dude! just telling the truth :P .. tomorrow holiday , weeeeeee!! ^_^ But miss them la :P *4th month, and 4sc1 has already been blacklisted by some teachers* XD
Getting ready for this coming monday's english essay project :O GROUP STUDY TIME ! xD
On to friends, Friends?? got alot :) friendly people , got some are even special friends la. (Best friends la, dont misund xD) , finally found one or two friends to go to the gym with :D .. finally can start working out.. ehh, just started ok ?? don't come pushing my chest , squeezing my hand all .. YET.. :PP better yet, one of my friends can teach me how to work out :OO THANKS DUDE! .. finally got some things to do , besides sleeping at home everyday..haha!
Talentime and drama so fast over D: bad thing about this year is,, MANA PHOTO! TT__TT
so less photos ny.. but anyways, atleast we enjoyed it la.. thats enough , enough for us to remember..Drama, my first time experiencing being part of them. Really nice, already missing them :) all those rehearsal and stuffs.. so fast D': .. Great working together with them :) once in a life time.. Like what Ms. Corine said, '' Well Done! Now experienced it, now remember it forever, cherish it!" ..
On Saturday , before the show started , Saw Mr Thomas Wong (Asst. Monitor's Dad) , he asked us quite a meaningful question :) .. will always remember it. Wonderful Man..
Come to think of it, finally im getting closed to Mr Waran.. 4sc1's wonderful English Teacher.
His one hack of a awesome teacher i tell you .. (Correction : Educator *) haha.. not bad la..
Din' notice typed so many adi .. @@ .. sorry sorry xD haha.. but if you have read until here. Thanks for your time :) this is kinda like sharing my experience with the world ..haha..Met some new friends, some old gone adi (unfriend??) , SOME. But then, cherish the ones we have.. haha.. Good night. Update soon ;)
P/s : To one of my closest Bestie who are waiting for this post, thanks for your patience xD *salute* xDD :) .
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